A Beautiful Mess – Jason Mraz
last chorus –
“And through timeless words, and priceless pictures
We’ll fly like birds not of this earth
And tides they turn, and hearts disfigure
But that’s no concern when we’re wounded together
And we tore our dresses, and stained our shirts
But it’s nice today, oh the wait was so worth it.”
Finally done with phase 1 Taipei Mediphar Expo, the actual process was quite exhausting, especially we did not change crew at all for 4 consecutive days. The amount of visitors were not as many as expected, it is afterall an exhibition for medical equipments, who goes to these expos anyway?
However, through the process I have learned and accumulated much more experiences than I would have in an otherwise nice, comfortable weekend. It’s great to be able to converse with people of all different backgrounds, and even better, to engage in business relationships.
At the end of the expo, though extremely burned out, I felt this empty feeling, wanting to linger on a little more. Well, the feeling can only last so long because we are moving onto the next one in K.L.
Some snaps:
The Crew
Me introducing my company to a Japanese reporter
I wanted to push it and knock it over, but it shrugged and waved his arms acting all cute and scared, so I let it slide and allow it take a picture with me.
Traitor. (’cause it’s a butterfly, my business is honeybees, rivals. Inside joke.)
this company is sick, they develop a machine that allows eye movements to replace mouses so the disabled will have more convenient navagation through computers.
I wonder how it’ll work on Warcraft.
Not a lot of people really.
The expo is near Taipei 101, heart of Taipei.
Allen, an awesome fellow I met the other day in a lounge bar, turned out to be one of the executives of this giant Electric Scooter company, guy is ONLY 30!!!
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Through this process I think I’ve found the answer to my troubles a while back. There was this doubt in myself and my willingness to stay working with the family. There were many reasons for it, I guess primarily it was the continuous failures to accomplish a couple of major deals.
Then there were continuous condemns from my father, who repeatedly scold me for my incompetences and flaws in my personality. Don’t get him wrong, he really cares for me, it just seems that he simly is too eager to see me grow up to his expectations.
I am very thankful for my father, for he sees a lot more potentials in me than I do myself. And he gets pissed asking the same questions all the time. The question of why his son is the way he is, and how to change him into the person he should be.
I really, really do understand his wish for my wellbeing, and as much as I am tired of his impatience and constant snapping and yelling and screaming, I love him unconditionally and I’m still willing to do all that it takes to become a better Jacky.
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I feel relieved now that I realize I’ve been setting up my goals too high and tried to skip all the challenges and lessons I must endure to get there. I set up false premises for myself and push myself into believing all this can be done within a short period of time, just as much as my father expects me to become a man he thinks I should be without walking the path.
I guess this is just the process, I’m sure this feeling of frustration will come again from time to time… but right now I feel kind of free, so let’s stay feeling that way.
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I am officially going back to the states on Dec. 18 2009, the tickets are purchased, life is beautiful.
Till later!
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